on May 27th, 2015 No Comments
SMS (“Stanford Medical School”) Unplugged is a forum for students to chronicle their experiences in medical school. The student-penned entries appear on Scope once a week; the entire blog series can be found in the SMS Unplugged category.
Summer. It beckons with strawberry warm rays of sunlight, afternoons spent splashing in a pool, and the joys of watermelon-flavored popsicles. We, second-year medical students around the country, look out our windows and see children, newly freed from school, frolicking in the playground next door – and feel miserable. For this is the time when we are experiencing the worst of medical school.
We have completed the pre-clinical curriculum, some of us barely crawling across the finish line. We have spent weeks cramming for the USMLE, an exam described in no softer terms than “the most important exam you will take in your life.” And we are becoming familiar with a new kind of anxiety as we prepare to enter clinics for the first time. Or, rather, my classmates are – I chose to take time off between second and third year.
In the midst of Stanford-high expectations for our professional performance, we are seldom taught exactly how to take care of ourselves. I knew that I needed to change something halfway through second year when I found myself outlining a novel instead of studying during finals week. I nearly failed two exams. But I was happy.
I felt satisfied.
And so, I set about finding a way to incorporate more of writing into my medical school experience. Stanford has funding called Medical Scholars, which is set aside for every medical student to take a year off to work on a significant project or research experience. Their office willingly helped me apply for and receive this funding to work on my novel full-time for a year. I can’t imagine this level of support for an artistic endeavor from any other medical school. And so very soon, I too will be frolicking in the grass, newly freed from school.